Our sweet Baby boy was born in November and the last 3 months have been a complete life changing experience. When I used to hear that phrase, “life changing”, from parents, they would say it with a smile on their face and make it seems like having a child was such a great thing! And it is, don’t get me wrong, but I would describe the first month and half or two as a beautifully catastrophic, chaotic kind of life changing experience.
I thought I would have a baby, take a month or two off and return to my life without missing a beat. I expected to be back on the dance floor in January and told everyone about my plan. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Boy, was I naive! I had NO CLUE what was about to happen to my dance lifestyle.
Over Christmas, I was trying to figure out how to get back into the dance studio. The thought of fitting in 4 or 5 dance classes/practices a week was giving me total anxiety; not because I didn’t want it, but because I couldn’t fit that time into my schedule. With Baby’s nursing schedule, I can only be away from him for a little bit at a time. Taking him with me was not an option. So I made a decision. I picked the one class that fit the best into Baby’s nursing schedule and Travis’s availability to take care of him while I was gone. I returned to the dance floor in February. So now I’m dancing ONLY ONCE A WEEK!!! It’s a hard reality, but I keep telling myself that it’s only temporary. Again, I have my whole life to dance. As much as I hate putting dance on the back burner, I’m happy and grateful that I’m at least able to have that one class per week.
Having a baby changed my whole perspective and life style. I used to just be able to hop in my car at any time of day or night and drive up to an hour for a practice, dance lesson, or a group class. Now my first priority is my family. I don’t have the luxury of time anymore so what I choose to do with it is very important and valuable to me.
Looking back, I am so glad that I took all the dance opportunities that were presented to me, because it will be a while before I can get back into dance 100%. I miss the pre-Baby dance lifstyle, but I feel good about my decision, my new life, my new chapter titled, Mama :)